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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 20:36:49 GMT

Happy Birthday to Me, Happy Birthday to Me!!!

It's my 20th Birthday and i have no idea why I returned to this site but I did. Nothing has changed much. One of my best friends is getting married this year, me and my boyfriend have almost been together 4 two years and I can't wait till Spring BREAK!!! So I can go home. I also passed all my VET TECH classes because I am F*CKIN AMAZING!!! I miss my family and my boyfriend and I can't wait to kick ass this weekend and then take my happy ass home.

I love my family and boyftiend and my friends and most of all GOD, Thanx to all of them 4 helping me this far in my life.

It's been awile

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 14:12:22 GMT

So no one reads these things anymore. Anyway i decided I would write anyway. I am home from college for Winter Break (Christmas Break). I am so excited to be home. Christmas is comin yippie. My kitty cat is bouncing off the walls. I kinda miss my puppy. I haven't seen him in like 4ever. This summer he is definantly comin over here. my dwarf hamster looks as good as ever. I miss school like very lil. I might have to bowl in a tournament the day after Christmas, but who knows. If not i will be at home playin with all my stuff. I miss my Elyse!!!! We haven't hung with each other yet since I have been home. I did hang with Alexa and Rakhel. Then I went to the movies. Don't go see I Am Legend. It was good then a giant let down. Then Ritters is gonna make me fat. I love Ritters. It's really good. My mom is gonna blast Christmas music out of every corner in my house I swear. I have been working and it's kickin my butt. Puppies Puppies everywhere. Kittens and crazy ass mean cats. I have only been there 1 week and I am already scratched up. I had get used to poop again. That's not an easy task. It's sad that I can touch and look at anything but the smell of nasty things could probably knock me out. Gotta get used to that. Poop is even worse then cat disection. Poop and urine is the worst when they are all together. I returned and my room looks very Jonas Brother like thanx to my sister. I got to play in the snow and that was ammusing. It really sucked that I couldn't go driving for like 2 days. I literally had to beg my mom to let me go. She let me go because she says I go insane when I am cooped up which I don't think is true, but whatever. My grades aren't bad but they aren't great. I haveto talk to one of my teachers because I think he messed up because there is something wrong with my grades. Anyway I am awake and it's breakfast time. Yippie!!!!! Peace OUT YO!!!!!!!

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 03:07:16 GMT

Life is Life. The summer is coming to an end. Sadly it's ending and I have to return back to the place I wish I didn't. I don't know but I don't really want to go. Life is hectic. My family is annoying. I think I just don't have a space of my own and I have to see the same people every day and it gets old really fast. I can't stand my aunt and all the sudden me and my dad are back on speaking terms. Me and My g-ma are actually doing pretty good. My entire summer has been spent bowling and then working and then working with my boyfriend. We see each other a lot. Buffalo was interesting. There was plenty of interesting things to do. I can't wait till the state fair. That should be interesting .Always is. Slightly annoying because it's even more family. My boyfriend is going wth me so i guess it will make it a lil more enjoyable. i miss my friends. They are all very busy and things that are planned with me just seem to never work. Oh well life is life. tomorrow is a new day. SO I am off to my boredum and stress. I guess ity's time for sleep.

Pain and anger and life goes on

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 01:21:29 GMT

Ok Well nothing special has been going on. I am well into my lovely summer. I am so happy to be home. Morehead is a lil out of my comfort zone. I am not sure how I am gonna handle next year, but I guess I will figure that out later. I got a new ball and I am in love with it. hopefully it will do what I need. I get to go to Buffalo, New York and bowl in Jr. Gold. I am kind of excited about that. My boyfriend and I have been together for an entire year. I am burning the hell up in this house because my grandma and the air conditioner aren't friends. I have the worst headache. Basically I see my boyfriend my best friends and go watch my sister play soccer. She is pretty good. I like her new team. Anyway life is life. A few days I went to a Dragon's game. 1st real time and 1st real baseball game. Um today is father's day. I wish I had a real father to wish a Happy Father's day. Instead I have a lying father who makes me feel like shit and doesn't give a damn. He is even fuckin up my sister. That is really fucked up. She is to lil for this bull shit, but she handles it better than me. I am trying to just forget it but it's hard to just act like it's no big deal since it's the only dad i have none and he should never have came into my fuckin life. How can u just decide to be a father when ever you want. Ignore me then except me only when he feels like it. Forgot my birthday and Christmas 3 times straight. Makes up some fucked up lie, as usual. I guess I need to just get over it and learn to deal with it. People have worse problems and I got a mom and a lil sister and my friends. I only have one dad that I know and my grandma always tell me you don't get to choose ur parents and you gotta love and find a way to deal with the ones u have because sometimes that's all u got. Gotta do the best you can because you don't get anymore. So here I am and I know what to do. Now all I have to do is figure out how to do it. Well now that I have all that out of me I feel a lil better even though my dad's a jack ass. i gotta an awesome boyfriend, the greatest best friend and a family who loves and supports me minus a few people. Well until the next lovely bitch fest or writing sessions. Peace Out

~Dee~

Friday, April 13, 2007

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 19:37:41 GMT

i don't know I felt bored so I thought this looked like good idea. Life hasn't changed much. School is finally almost over. I have nationals next week. It;s amazing that our team is going to nationals. I am tired of bowling but it's almost over and I will be ok. My boyfriend will be here next year so everything will be better and yeah. I know that over the summer I will begin to miss bowling and then I will go back to the wa I am now for sure. I hope we get some cool bowlers next year. I hope there won't be to much drama because yeah it sure was beautiful this year. I guess every team has their drama. Anyway I am tired of a lot of people here. I always got 1 person I can talk to. mel and Erin rock out. Tired of getting hit on. This is a typical small place with nothing to do. Depends on the person because apparently some people like it here. I don't know how but it's true. i will not be here a moment longer than I have to be. College life is a lot better than high school even though it was an important part of life. Anyway I have practice. Nationals is comin up so I guess i gotta practice.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 08:37:16 GMT

Today be my birthday and I had a party yesterday and I must say it was wonderful. Me and my sister made my cake and then I had to proceed to make my uncle's cake and my aunt's. Had a good time. The whole family was here and my grammy made me fried chicken and it was good. I got my cartilage pierced and it doesn't hurt at first but now it does. I decided to get up and be with my mom. She is a night owl. She's a funny lady. I made a big double layer chocolate and it was damn good. I must say I had a good. day and I hope today is good. I think it's time to go shopping. I love shopping. I hope everyone has a good day. I am so happy to be home with less stress. I hate being stressed. I guess I will try and go back to sleep.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 21:18:29 GMT

It has been awhile. i haven't had much of a life and no one really uses this site anymore. So no one knows what I say here. I have had much aggrivated stress that last few months. Especially the last one. i had the racial problems and being away from my family, boyfriend, and friends for a long period of time. I don't know why it got so bad but it did. Now it's all good though. I got to go home and it was wonderful to be home. I can't wait till next weekend becuase I will be home again and that will be wonderful. I can't wait till my birthday because then that weekend I get to stay at home because I have spring break the following week. I went home last weekend and it was wonderful. I got to be with my boyfriend and then i got to hang out with my best friends at home who I haven't seen. I got a new bowling ball which I like and I got to use it. I think I have to many balls but it's just a thought. Tomorrow is my friends birthday and I think i will make her a cake or brownies. I am not sure at the moment. I think I have bowling practice tonight. That should be interesting. Not really. Oh well this weekend is our last tournament for awhile. Then we are on to sectiontionals and then hopefully Nationals and it would be exciting to win but if not I heard it's an experince just to be there.

Lets see I think the guys at the tech place fixed my computer and that's really good because I really needed my computer. Yes it is really sad that people these days have a hard time suving without acccess to their computer. I think I would go crazy without my phone and my computer. I don't remember life without one. That's pretty sad, but it's true. There is so many things to do on the computer and it's pretty nice to be able to talk to people on a computer except some people live on it and that's all they do. Thats kinda bad. I think i had to write a paper on this for a class I had last semester. It was a good paper though. That was to much research though.

Today was an interesting day. I got to go to the farm it was kinda icy and smelled like nasty pigs which is what we got to see. We went to the hog house and it was stinky as usual. Sometimes it's really hard to deal with that smell. I think i am gonna stick to the small animals but it's good to know those things. I might change my mind but in the mean time probably not. most of those kids grew up on a farm or they just know a whole lot. I don't know anything really about farm animals. More stuff to learn.

Classes this semester are annoying. I have no motivation. I hope i do as good as I did last semester though. Well I think that's enough for one day so I guess I will go take a nap then it's off to practice. Who knows when I will use this thing next.

Monday, January 08, 2007

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 02:48:52 GMT

It has been awhile since I have posted. Anyway I passed all my classes and got a 3.4 GPA. I wish I had got one more A so I could have made the Dean's list. Next semester is gonna kill. I guess I will make it though. Christmas was awesome. I had a lot of fun and I got to see Bummiey on Christmas and New Year so that made it even better. I got almost everything I wanted. Going to Alantic City for bowling sucked. It was cool because our team won 1st in one tournament and then 2nd in the next and one team member one top girl. Yeah things got heated and the racists shit didn't make it better and well it over all just sucked. I was happy to see Tiff though since i have been on break so it was cool. I am so happy to be back home with all my friends and it feels great. I don't know if I wanna go back but I guess I will be. I got to see my Elyse and my Brittany and basically my second family. I have about 8 days of freedom left then I have to go back and I don't get to come home for almost a month which is gonna suck. Well I guess today was the best day I have had in awhile. I Am still smiling from today. Well I off to call people.

Peace

~Dee~

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 23:28:11 GMT

Ok well my morning sucked BUTT! I agrued all morning starting at freakin 8 in the morning then finally when I begin to get some sleep the freakin fire alarm goes off. JUST WONDERFUL!!! Considering it's reading day and I should be sleeping in. By the way reading day is our study day during exam week where we don't have class. Some people didn't know that. I felt like I should educate some people today. I know me educating someone, now that's funny. Anyway today will be a boring day. I should probably go study for my computer exam but I won't till later. I am gonna go sell my books back maybe today because i don't want them and i am pretty sure of the classes i passed. Anyway I can't wait till i go home. Only problem is i gotta take all this stuff with me. I can't wait to go home. I just got done shopping with Matissa and that was fun. She is leavin me and transfering to EKU. DEPRESSING!!!!! Anyway besides that brief part in the morning it's been a wonderful day and no miss Bethany i most certainly wasn't paying attention in Math class last week. It's hard to like that man. He does let you get away with a lot and tries to help u with just about anything math related. Anyway I guess this day ended a lot better then i thought it would and i guess i am done 4 now.

Peace all

~Dee~

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 19:58:42 GMT

Hello World. I am in Math class. I don't even want to be here. My teacher is slightly annoying but yet I deal with it. I like never use this thing anymore and no one ever reads it either. I keep posting because I sometimes it's cool to just way what you want to say. Today someone from Cj talked to me. I am suprisd because I haven't really talked to anyone since a couple months after graduation. Everyon is off in a new part of their life. It's kinda weird how you loos a lot of your friends and they just stop talking to you. I wonder if i ever see these people again later in life will they even remember me. I miss some parts of high school although the lack of drama in college is so freakin awesome. Although college still has plenty of drama. I am on the bowling team and we have drama where ever we go. My first semester is almost over and it really did go fast but it also took forever. I want to go on break already. My roomate is leaving and I will be all alone and I will miss her but maybe it will be cool to have a room all to myself. I feel so drown up now. I do so many things on my own and I feel like for once I have my own life. I did for awhile but bowling has taken over what life i had.. I sometimes wonder how my old friends are doing and sometimes it bothers me that I will probably never talk to them again. I have made alot of new friends and I will always have my chidhood friends. They know me the best and will never leave me. If this man doesn't shut up. He said this is the last probelm like freakin 10 times already. I have practice soon and if we run over I am gonna be a cranky person. I really can't wait till spring because i get to go on another cruise and i can't wait. OH YEAH HE IS FINALLY DONE!!!! I kinda enjoyed this so maybe later after practice I will continue.

Peace All